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  • Like I said, I wanted to give more updates, this does include pet updates. First, I must give writing updates and I am disappointed I haven't had time to do any writing at all. This is due to our new puppy Tomo. He is quite the hand full and by the time he's sleep, I'm too tired to get any writing done. I want to push myself in order to get some writing done. This is really important that I especially get the first Polar Qimuktis book together and get it released. It's a guarantee it will be available this year, but there's a delay due to not getting enough time to actually sit down and work on it. I do have to finish the other five books to the Polar Qimuktis series.


    I am very glad Tomo has adapted to his new home and new family well. He is running around playing and showing obvious happiness. He has some behavioral issues I know my family must address before he gets older. One thing is that he's starting to play bite and due to his tiny needle like teeth, his bites hurt and now he's starting to break skin. I have cuts and holes in my hands, legs and arms and one time on my face due to his biting. I know the number one rule is to not allow play biting. I know with Scotty, we didn't stop his play biting which resulted in him play biting as an adult. With Tomo however, it is extremely important to stop this due to his bites breaking skin and drawing blood.

    I looked it up for Scotty years ago on how to stop your puppy to stop biting and the experts advised to make a loud high pitch noise to let the dog know they bit you too hard. Then you stop playing with the dog. I will let everyone know that it NEVER worked and it isn't effective in stopping a dog to stop biting. I did that, but the dog actually likes for me to make a noise and I think it's because of the dog toys that makes loud high pitch noises which makes them play more, and this is what both of our dogs do. I am currently trying to get Tomo to stop his biting.


    Scotty here is still avoiding Tomo, but he is better than we expected. He shares his food, water bowl and toys with Tomo, but this is something we're trying to stop Tomo from doing because we notice Tomo feeling as if he is dominate. Since Scotty was here first, my family feels Scotty shouldn't be second to Tomo. This is another big problem we need to take care of before Tomo is big to prevent any fighting or Tomo being a bully to Scotty. He is trying to test Scotty and I dislike this. We have considered getting rid of Tomo, but we do love him already but we won't allow him to bully Scotty. We won't get rid of him just as long as he stays in his place and be nice to Scotty. I really love Scotty and don't want anyone being mean to him, no human or animal.

    We will be getting some more pets. Definitely more snakes and a lizard. I wanted to have a pet goat or pig, but I found out many of the States and cities in the United States prohibits people from owning a pig, even a mini pig. I do love unusual and exotic animals and would continue to collect exotic animals. The United States is not a good country for owning exotic animals that much because most are illegal to own.



    This is a BTS K-Pop plushy. I always liked this one and had to own at least one plushy. Isn't it cute?The bottom picture on the right is Rilakkuma, the Japanese character mascot brand. 


    Kawaii Rilakkuma pillow and blanket I bought for my mom. Below is a St. Petersburg Russian pillow that I purchased from Russia. I thought this was cute and so I had to get this for my mom. 



    Our dog's new toys. We are having them to share these toys.


    We put up some Easter decorations...


    And this was suppose to spell "Happy Easter" but as you can see it is misspelled and says "Happy Aester". I was thinking, we had to get the one that was misspelled. Exclusively at Walmart because only Walmart would have something like this.

    Speaking of Easter, I did share before how I've been working on a Fantasy book series based upon different holidays and mostly Easter. I was recently trying to get this book series together to get the books I want to publish in order. Yes, I do have a publishing list of what I want to publish. I've looked at the older outlines and the older documents and piecing it together. I also had ideas for even more books and games, but I've only been able to write a bit of notes about them and select names for characters. Some have been in the Horror category while some in Children's literature genre. For the games, they were all under the fantasy, adventure and action category. I am currently trying to develop the ideas for these new projects.

    And for April 14th, up here in Minnesota, we have lots of snow, shovelable snow. Just when I thought we'd finally have a Springy Easter, we get gelid weather and piles of snow. Also freezing rain. I observed others and their weather around the world and noticing a huge difference. I feel like I'm in the Arctic, but one thing to note about living in Minnesota is that you don't get many hot or warm days. Most of the year is on the cooler side. To us, a good day is about 60 or 50 degrees. That's the main temperatures of Minnesota. But we can get hot summers, but there's not many days where you'll get a warm summer day.

    So, these are the updates I wanted to share and I'll make sure to share more updates soon. Also, I'll make sure to keep the blogs active. I'm writing this in the middle of the night, so if there are any errors, I'll make sure to fix them as soon as possible...

    Updates for April 13th-14th 2019

  • Reluctantly, I got back on Facebook to announce my upcoming book, but I'm beginning to get tired of the recent issue. I feel every time, there's something wrong with Facebook. Now recently, I've been having a problem where males and females, but mostly men sending me constant harassing messages. They send naked pictures or hearts, constantly ask to date when I simply say no and they are sending inappropriate pictures. This is an unfortunate issue because I do like networking and connecting with humans from all over the world and I have nothing wrong with anyone from any country. Now this has made me caution who I connect with.

    This is only because of the pattern I notice from people originating from specific countries harassing me, which made me wary of others who send friend requests who also come from these countries. It has been a problem with people from the Middle East, Africa and South America.

    I have been trying get inform Facebook of this issue, trying to explain this is one of the reasons why I didn't want my personal information on social media. They have ignored me as usual and refused to allow me to take off some of the information from my profile. Every time I try to make parts of my profile private, it goes back to being public. Facebook forced me to put my face on my profile along with my gender and other information which has attracted unwanted attention. I'm not satisfied in how unprofessional Facebook has gotten.

    Yes, I have added other languages, the languages Russian and Turkish on my profile, which also drew unwanted attention. Knowing my workplace, Prohealth Care has also attracted problems. This issue makes me frustrated because I am only there to have a professional experience and to network. Also, I think this makes other people of Middle Eastern descent look bad on Facebook and social media. Because so many of these people are behaving inappropriately, everyone assumes they are all spam, pests and have bad intentions on social media. I have fully realized this is what Facebook's assumptions were coming from that they automatically assumed I am fake and is a spam person. I dislike the stereotype these people have created for themselves because it ruins it for those who are just like me, seeking for professional networking and have innocent intentions on these sites. I can see it's even harder to have an online presence as a female Middle Easterner.

    It has became annoying that just because of my mixed ancestry, people see me as "exotic" and they feel the need to harass me with their inappropriate pictures and videos, and constantly asking to date and all that other annoying things. This is one of the major issues when being mixed race. People often don't treat you as a human being who deserves respect but as some trophy or bragging rights where they can say, "I'm dating a mixed girl."

    This recent problem has gotten so bad, I block people everyday. It is disruptive because I often work on my phone as well and I get interrupted by the notification or if someone tries to constantly call me. I don't do video calls or things of that sort unless it is business related. I feel Facebook needs to do a better job at cracking down on these of that sort. Women and children deserve to have a safe area where they can network without harassment.

    So, I'm not sure what to do with my Facebook account. I know I just got it back, but this issue has gotten really annoying. I have used Facebook to post my blog posts, promote myself and my book, but I'm not sure if it's worth it. I am currently debating. In the meantime, I will make sure to screen everyone who sends a friend requests for now on. I use to accept everyone's friend requests, but now I don't. It's unfortunate because I know it causes some sort of false conceptions of people and assumptions because I have to block those who looks suspicious as well. I don't friend people who has iffy profiles, not enough information filled out, no activity posted on their walls; I also examine their friend's list and do not accept if I see a bunch of girls wearing skimpy clothes or has iffy photos. It's unfortunate too because it can be hard to tell if the person will harass me or not, but I have begun taking these steps first.

    If anyone who is reading this is on Facebook, I would appreciate it if you explain to me you are either have connected with me on other social media sites or you read my posts because iffy profiles I have had to block. And that's pretty much it...

    Facebook Update 3


  • It's the first Wednesday of April which makes it time for another Insecure Writer's Support Group. If you would like to learn more about it, please visit here:

    If you could use a wish to help you write just ONE scene/chapter of your book, which one would it be? (examples: fight scene / first kiss scene / death scene / chase scene / first chapter / middle chapter / end chapter, etc.)

    This can be a hard one but perhaps the end scene for one of my WIPs. This is a Historical Fiction Horror, Dark Fantasy series and I've been having difficulties figuring out the right words in order to compose it to be more dramatic. I tend to know how the story or series will end so I can know where I'm going with my work, but I can't seem to get it to sound as good as I picture it in my head. I don't really have problems with writer's block or anything, but sometimes making the scene how I imagined it. However, this particular ending, I do find the dialogue dull and not as I want it. It would be nice to have the right words. I think the scene is fine, it's just the dialogue is weak. 

    The ending has to be solid and I can't seem to put the dialogue together. Since I don't have to do the ending right now, I just continued to outline and plan out this book until I get to that point. I just worry it won't be good enough. This book again is a Historical Fiction based in 1885. So I have been doing lots of research about this timeline which is something I really love doing. I love history and so I think Historical Fiction is perfect for me. This book will reveal most of the things I learned about demons and hell. The information I am saving for this particular book. Perhaps it will be the darkest book I write, but probably not because I have started other Horror, Dark Fantasy projects. I do find this my darkest because it gives a deep insight of demons and hell. This will give lots of detailed descriptions of each level of hell and about the demons from each level. I will reveal my discovery of how many levels there actually are in hell in this book and in other books.  

    Anyway, this is one particular thing I would wish for help with. I guess I have to call it the ending dialogue or ending scene.

    IWSG: April 3rd 2019

  • I never realized how hard it is owning more than one dog, now I do. My sister wanted another dog and so my family has been looking for puppies for sale recently. Please note, we now have a puppy, I am simply sharing the story of searching for a puppy. I didn't realize neither how hard it is finding a dog for a reasonable price. It gets even harder when searching for a specific breed. My sister wanted a Japanese Chin or any breed that originated from East Asia because she loves everything related to East Asia.

    I know how people lecture others on adopting a dog instead of purchasing from a breeder. However, the animal shelters do not make it easy for people to adopt animals. Again, I will mention the irrelevant questions on the applications like how long have you lived in your house, your work address and phone number, who are all in the household with full names, gender and age, among other questions I feel has nothing to do with adopting an animal. Most of the dogs were about 2 years old or older and never was potty trained, which is way too old to teach a dog this. Plus, they must get a house visit before they determine if they should give you the dog or not. I feel the animal shelters are way too uppity and their system turns off people from adopting animals. Well, it certainly turned me away from adopting.

    I highly recommend "Four Paws and a Tail" pet store which is located in Blaine, Minnesota in the North Town Mall because this is where we purchased both of our puppies from. It was quick and convenient. This is the reason why I prefer to buy my dogs here or either from another pet store or breeder to eliminate the unnecessary headache animal shelters put you through in order to adopt a dog.

    There is another huge factor and that is best to buy a puppy with a clean slate without any bad experiences. I remember my family adopted a Jack Russell Terrier from an abusive home. He aggressively attacked my mom the very first night he was brought home, and he ended up having severe aggressive issues to the point he needed to be put down, which is another reason I didn't know about adopting dogs. My family also had bad experiences when the dogs are raised around their parents, siblings and the breeder or person selling a dog. Due to this practice, in which the breeder assumes it is socializing the dogs, but it is getting them too attached to their environment, parents and siblings. I remember purchasing dogs like this and ended up having to give them back because they never adjusted to their new home and new family. In fact, I remember one in particular named Wolf, he never liked our family and wanted to return back home. So I believe the pet store environment gives them no chance to bond with the breeder and their family, so they will easily move into their new home. This is why I recommend Four Paws and a Tail.

    So, here is the story...


    We set up the cage to go to Four Paws and a Tail. After having such a hard time purchasing a dog, we decided to go back to this place.


    We got the puppy from the mall and had to immediately be washed after pooping in the cage. This is one of the first pictures taken of the puppy. He is a Cairn Terrier and if you don't know this, this is the very same dog breed used in Wizard of Oz known as Toto. My sister wanted him to have a Japanese name in honor to the Anime she watches and her love for Japanese culture. She originally picked the name Tomoaki but everyone else had a hard time pronouncing it, all but me because I am studying Japanese and learned Japanese words and names are easy to pronounce. However, we found a shorter and easier name and that's Tomo. So his name is Tomo which is still a Japanese name and it sounds similar to Toto.



    Due to having a new puppy, it is a lot like having a newborn baby. Tomo didn't whine as much at first, but now he whines quite a bit. My family hasn't been able to get much sleep with him around. I haven't been able to get any writing done at all because by time he's sleep, I am too tired to do anything else but go to sleep myself. It's best to take a nap whenever he's sleep or you'll miss the chance to get rest. I want to get back into releasing my book, Polar Qimuktis but it's hard to squeeze in time for writing.

    It can be hard taking care of more than one dog in the house. The first day is good, but when their personality comes in, which is in a few days or a week, most of that excitement of getting a puppy vanishes. They're cute online, but you must factor in it's a big responsibility. I usually stay up at night writing, but now my family is caring for Tomo. He adjusted well into his new home and adjusted to us quickly.

    I will give a review on owning these dogs. First, I noticed Tomo behaves a lot like our current dog, Scotty. Both dogs are watching television which I think getting the channel, DogTV is a good way in training your dog to watch tv.


    Scotty is a Morke which is a designer dog, Maltese + Yorkie mix and he also was purchased from Four Paws and a Tail pet store in the mall. He is now 2 years old, but I remember his first day.


    Scotty was a baby and I will always see him as a baby. We had just lost our dog, Tangie and it was hard to get another puppy then. We just decided one day to get one from the mall. It was an emotional day because we weren't over the loss of our previous dog who was a Yorkie. Scotty was mischievous just as Tomo is now and he loved to play bite which brings me to the topic...

    It is best to start early on grooming and preventing food aggression. Also I did learn it's good to not allow a puppy to bite you, in which Scotty and Tomo did as puppies. If not, they won't grow out of it and might bite you too hard, breaking skin which it becomes less playful to the person. People often make the mistake of thinking puppy bites are harmless and cute and never teach the dog not to bite. I learned it's best to gently redirect the puppy into biting on toys and bones instead of on you. Tomo wasn't doing anything the first couple of days, but now his personality came out. He loves to run around, explore and play. Yes, as I read about the Cairn Terrier, he has the potential to dig and that's a big no-no since my family has a garden.

    Cairn Terriers are known to being feisty and hard to train. This is true. I do believe the Cairn Terrier is a difficult dog breed to train and it is a breed only for experienced dog owners who has dealt with stubborn and difficult dog breeds. Like what I read how hard it is to potty train them, this is true. Tomo refuses to be potty trained, in which smaller breeds are able to be pad trained like Scotty is. Tomo is not yet, but I am training him. He's an adventurous exploring puppy who loves to get into everything and bite on everything in sight. He never chewed up anything because I don't give him the chance.

    Our experience of owning a Morkie is that I noticed how stubborn Scotty can be. He is a good dog though and perhaps would recommend it to inexperienced dog owners. I noticed the Morkie behaves a lot like Jack Russell Terriers. He has a personality that reminds us of our previous dogs. The Morkie has a sensitive stomach just as the Yorkie. He's very playful and intelligent and would make a good guard alert dog and companion.

    He hasn't been eating his puppy food, but my family does not believe in starving the dog until they do. Puppies are like babies and cannot go without eating in 24 hours. We don't put our dogs on a schedule because my family believes it is not necessary to. Our dogs get 24/7 access to water and food due to them having access to the bathroom all the time as well.

    Scotty avoids Tomo which is a good thing. It's better than what my family expected because we thought he would attack him. We found out he is unsure and I do know a nervous or scared dog is unpredictable. So we make sure they keep their distance until they warm up to each other. Introducing a new dog to the current dog can take time and needs to be handled with caution and patience. You must make sure it's in a controlled environment when getting them to meet. Do it slow so nothing bad would happen. Like we always have Tomo on a leash and since Scotty poses no threat to Tomo, we do not leash him but still caution the time they look and are near each other. Tomo is on a leash so we can always snatch him up just in case. Scotty is nervous around Tomo which was why we allowed both of them to have their own space until they are friends. No, I don't believe in the "expert" advice in getting a male and female dog in order for the dogs to get along. My family had to do what was best for our house and getting two males were to avoid being stuck with a bunch of puppies. No, we also don't believe in neutering our dogs and this I noticed has prevented our dogs from having the humping behavioral problem, versus one of our previous dogs who were neutered and developed this problem.

    Having more than one dog means double the clean up and double shedding. We are trying to get Tomo use to grooming because he is a dog breed that requires fur trimming again to prevent aggression later. It is really good to stop behavioral issues and getting them familiar with things early on.

    So anyway, I hope Tomo and Scotty gets along soon. Due to our new puppy, I haven't had enough time to post or write, but I'll make sure to keep three of the blogs active. I will post more pet updates as well.

    Pet Updates

  • Recently, I went out wearing my new Kawaii clothes. I just got a thought about wearing these sort of clothes I wanted to share in order to help people better understand this society. Here is what I wore:


    Both came from Japan! And as I wore this outside, I began to feel more confident, in which for me, this is what Kawaii fashion elicits. Yeah, I was the only one in public with these sort of clothes, colorful makeup and purple bunny ears and the key to wearing these clothes is that you cannot care about that. You have to have a nonchalant attitude when not seeing others wearing Lolita or Kawaii fashion. I however discovered a revelation that many don't realize about these clothes and accessories. It creates a positive environment. It allows you to have fun with life and with the day, to be more self confident, to be yourself and to be happy. Yes, I did feel the clothes induced me to develop a positive reaction. It creates a unique upbeat, bubbly attitude and because you are wearing the clothes, it makes you want to behave in order to fit this style and that's positiveness, happiness, kindness and free spirit. It creates a person who wishes to think innocently as well.

    Wearing Kawaii fashion does require lots of practice and a few hours to prepare. Being that I needed to go somewhere in the morning, I needed to get ready 3 hours earlier in order to pick out the outfit, wig, makeup, accessories and to put it on right. I want to become a Living Doll, which means this requires extra precision in order to look closeness to dolls. If you look closely, dolls are well put together and you must also be well put together. This is why it takes longer to get ready. I realized I would need to prepare hours before I head out anywhere.

    Picking the outfit alone can take a while if you have different ranges of choices to choose from. I am still building my fashion and accessory collection, but what I have now is quite a lot. It can hardly fit in my bedroom, which requires that I organize my room a bit more. This is coming with the entire bedroom makeover I will make sure to give updates on. I may give a room tour soon as well, but not now because it's not ready yet. Far as for the clothes, I would prefer to start making my own designs I sketched a while back.

    Again, if you live in a country where people don't dress like this, it can sort of make someone feel a bit weird to see you're the only person in public wearing it. However, again, I realized that isn't my concern and I should be free to wear whatever I wish regardless of what others think or how they stare. I was glad yesterday wasn't bad at all, not as it use to be. I remember a few years ago, people stared and made bad comments and questioning me to show their disapproval. Yesterday was different. Not that it mattered. It doesn't matter how people stare or what people say, I will continue to pursue a journey in transforming myself into a Human Doll because dolls are beautiful.

    Anyway, the point to this post was sharing how I believe Kawaii clothes elicits positivity in which for some reason my computer thinks isn't a word. It promotes optimism for this is what I felt; I felt more confident and feeling not to take life too serious and to not be so intense. It helped cure my depression which made me realize I need to return wearing these clothes everyday. I started wearing cultural clothes, but I must switch back although I really love the Kameez and Sarees. Indian clothing will always be beautiful to me.

    So, I wanted to give everyone a different perspective on the Kawaii world and Living Doll society. Becoming a Human Doll isn't bad at all. It helps you be the best you can be and to be more confident in your own skin. I am not sure why the media and religious groups attacks and criticizes it so much, but I wish to bring more awareness to the true meaning of being a Living Doll, Lolita and Kawaii fashion.

    Wearing Kawaii Clothes

  • I wanted to give an update on Facebook. I know I did a recent post about how I tried to get my account back, but even after a few years, Facebook gave me trouble to recover my account. Well yeah that did happen which was why I didn't want to have any presence on Facebook, but my mom, being an expert on marketing advised me to at least have a presence there since it seems beneficial to have an author page. Reluctantly, I attempted to sign into my account again. After confirming my identity, I was allowed to get my account back, but my real name is on my account. I can only add my pen name as a nickname or other name, but no one really knows me online by my real name because originally I wanted to publish anonymously. Now I'm not.

    I have to fill out most of my profile since that were the terms if I had my account. So I am setting up my author page and personal account. Yes, I am now willing to share my face since that's the whole thing about being a Living Doll. Since I am combining my Living Doll lifestyle with my writing career, I will not make a separate blog or anything for either.

    After years of stating I am a real person, that was my real ID I provided and most importantly, I am not an illegal immigrant. I was hoping Facebook would remove the flag that I shouldn't be in the United States off my online presence. So for some reason, this has been removed and now I don't believe I'll have any other problems. However, I do stand behind the fact Facebook did racially profiled me and ruined my author brand when I wanted to publish anonymously.

    So, that's pretty much all I needed to share. Regarding my personal account, I don't really care about adding and will accept any friend request.

    UPDATES: I recently just got a couple of issues with Facebook users, one was regarding my mom's adoptive background and sharing my family's story of how inaccurate were our results on 23andMe. This is true and I stand behind my story because no, I'm not confused and later on, people will see my story is accurate.

    The other issue was the original issue before Facebook booted me off the site. I feel a lot of the users are racist and harassing, but I will try to keep this account only to have a Facebook presence as a writer. I would appreciate it though if people stopped targeting me and my family with their racism because I find it ridiculous since I haven't bothered anyone in this way and I am minding my own business. 

    Facebook Update

  • As I said I would share the cover reveal for the book Polar Qimuktis, here it is...


    I think it is a great improvement from the previous cover I wasn't happy with. I will only use the other one for promotional stuff, but not for the book cover. I showed this to my step-grandma's family and they are also impressed, some not even knowing I am a writer. Anyway, the designer is George Long and I would love to work with him in the future for other projects. I am very impressed by his work experience and thank him for his assistance in sharing his expertise on publishing since I am a first time writer.

    This was pretty much my envision. I needed something to represent the sled dog community and show sled dogs are a focal point to this story. However, that's not all for it is a Fantasy Adventure book. The feather is a Sioux prayer feather that was included to give a hint of the Native Sioux culture which also plays a key role in this book. This should show dogs going off to an adventure. I uploaded it on Instagram and it's receiving lots of likes from a diverse crowd. I am very glad that I have a range of diverse audience from all over the world because that is what I always strive for.

    Book Updates...

    I am currently still proofreading it to make sure there are no errors since I decided not to hire an editor because I am not willing to change anything in the book. This book throughout the years already has been through lots of drastic changes and so I'm not willing to change anything else. I am now satisfied in how the book is. I did not agree with the experts and their suggestions in not having a diverse book. My projects will always be diverse and I'm not changing that. 

    Publication will be soon; this month or either next month, but soon. 

    Cover Reveal for Polar Qimuktis


  • It is March 6, the first Wednesday of the month which means it is time for another post for IWSG. If you would like to know more about it, please visit this link:

    Whose perspective do you like to write from best, the hero (protagonist) or the villain (antagonist)? And why?


    This is a hard question because I have plenty of stories where I write in the hero and the villain's perspective. This question allows me to share my other projects I am working on. I like to tell it in the perspective which would be more interesting and this depends upon the project I am working on. 

    Sometimes, I find it more interesting to write a story based upon the villain's POV like for instance, my darkest POV would have to be a project I am currently writing that is something like an Epic Fantasy. The perspective is a demon with a human form. I did this because I like educating about the real side to demons and in this series, I share how real demons think. This book is in the Epic Fantasy, Horror genre. I feel it is interesting to allow the villain's agenda to sometimes be successful for a change. I write unpredictable stories because I believe in writing suspense filled stories that people cannot say they'll know what will happen next. I think sometimes writing in the perspective of the villain can allow me to have more of suspense. I think. 

    I just think is a hard question, although recently I have created WIPs that are not writing with the hero or the good guy's perspective. It can also be interesting to write in the hero's point of view if I feel the character is interesting. I try to pick based upon which perspective would be more exciting, adventurous and action filled. So it can be hard for me to answer this one because I have found it equally interesting to write in both perspectives.   

    IWSG: March 6, 2019

  • Since the first book cover design was unsuccessful, I hired someone else to design the cover for one of my first books, Polar Qimuktis. I am very impressed with the design so far and now I have to pick the style I want for the book. The artist designed 20 and I picked #17. I will show the cover reveal as soon as everything is finished.

    It's pretty much my envision of how I needed sled dogs to be the main star of the cover, but showing humans who see the cover to know this is not an ordinary sled dog book; it is Fantasy. There's a castle, forest and dragon in the far and I cannot wait to show everyone the cover.

    More Updates

    In other news... Well, I've been getting my whole Living Doll image together. I have been practicing the Japanese and Korean styled makeup and I believe I'm getting a bit better. I upload my progress on Instagram even though they're probably not worth sharing. I mostly play around with styles which would best suit my face. So far, I liked a Gyaru style that applies both black eyeliner and glittery eyeliner together. That's not all because as an extreme Living Doll, I will get plastic surgery to enhance my dolly appearance. 

    I will create an original character for my Living Doll life and that would be the Tikaani Moon character. It turned more into an Anime themed character because Tikaani Moon's human version is Anime and the doll I will create will have an Anime look. Yes, I will be creating a doll version of Tikaani Moon. The theme I'm going with my whole Living Doll career is fairy-tale wanderlust.


    In conclusion, I will be sharing more updates soon.

    Cover Updates

  • It's been hard thinking of something to post because I, well, perhaps it is a lack of motivation. Not to worry, I am not giving up blogging. I just know it is a commitment you must be committed to and I will continue to post and I won't let it not get updated regularly.

    I've been trying to keep my depression a secret, but it's been difficult since nothing's gotten better. Writing has been my source of therapy, but I have been struggling to continue. It can seem weird now that I am finally publishing, but I always wonder am I doing the right thing. If this is the right career for me. I have thought of giving up writing altogether, but I know it would be strange since I'm so close to getting what I worked so hard for. I've always struggled with this for years. It has been really hard to post the recent stuff I did post due to my depression.

    I know calling myself a new Living Doll and a Kawaii Person, I am suppose to be seen as always happy and optimistic, but I have struggled with this as well. I can't fake it anymore. I have more bad days than the average person, but I try to deal with my struggles each day.

    So, you may notice less frequent posts, but I will make sure to keep all three blogs active. I will continue to share updates and stuff like that, especially now that I will publish my book. My issue with depression is the reason why the posting have been inconsistent due to my very bad days.

    I may feel better later on though...

    Not Sure How To Title This...

  • I have been busy lately with my several projects and work outside of my writing career. Plus, enrolling in college. I have been doing more research on the major I want to make sure it does cover web design, but I believe I did pick the right one. I have also been continuing my journey to studying different languages, mainly Russian. Well, I already can speak Russian, I just wanted to learn the grammar and learn how to automatically read more words. I would like to get back to learning Japanese because I do believe it has to be the easier language to learn for pronunciation, but not so much for remembering the characters and what they mean.

    Lately, I've been working on one of my very first Fantasy books, you know, the one ready for publication now. Just one issue I need to fix regarding the chapters, and I think that would be it. I did get a cover design done recently, but I am not satisfied with the finished product. This is why I will hire someone else to redesign my cover. This is not the actual cover, but here is something where I'm going with the cover design, but I wasn't too satisfied with the finish...



    Many on this site assumed only because the main focus are the sled dogs that it is a children's kiddie book, but it is not. No, it isn't an adult book but sled dogs have been upgraded in this story to reach teen and young adult, an older audience. However, it is a good read for all ages. I just can't have any cover that is kiddie. 

    I have also been working on two separate series, one is another Fantasy series, the other is a Science Fiction series. I collaborated with my family on the title for the Science Fiction series and now like some of my newest projects, I now have titles for them. I am building the worlds of the different planets and developing the new alien races. I am obsessing over creating a truly fascinating world. This book I believe was influenced by my recently discovered family's adoptive background, and also the media. The main character from the Science Fiction series is a Russian American, born in Russia but raised by an American family. It does also discuss, I don't like using the term "Mental Illness" after working in the healthcare field for a few years and finding out this industry's schemes. Mental Illness technically doesn't exist, but it was just something that was created by the healthcare industry. I do discuss this in this series because the main character develops issues with self harm and the issues with stigmatization the healthcare professionals and society places on people who don't need anything but someone to talk to and to understand them.  

    Anyway, the other Fantasy series takes place in New Zealand because I dislike using the same countries, cultures and ethnic groups for my WIPs. This is more of a whimsical wanderlust type series sort of typical in what you'll find in British Fantasy stories. There are main characters from different backgrounds, United Kingdom, New Zealand, Georgia (country) and the United States. I found an older document of this book in my email and I wanted to use the original world-building and story development. All I'm doing is rewriting it from the older version which was actually when I first started writing years ago in my teen years. 

    The other updates, I have been purchasing gadgets to start my Youtube channel. The channel will feature my bedroom which is why I am transforming it. Also, so my room can fit my new lifestyle as a new Real Life Doll or Real Life Tikaani Moon. The channel will mainly be related to my writing, ancestry stuff, work and my Living Doll lifestyle. I may later on share makeup reviews and tutorials but this is much, much later on because I am still novice regarding makeup. I never wore makeup until now. 

    I will make sure to give more updates, especially share the hopefully better cover design.

    New Updates

  • I would like to further give some insights on the book I will publish first. This is especially when I have gotten questions and those who were anticipating the moment it would be available. I remember getting some interested from the Columbia Heights Police Department and I will make sure to hand out a few copies there. I know a few cops who have been wanting to read my book and I feel I should at least give only a few copies to those who were first interested. I want to thank the police departments who continued their enthusiasm about the book and I guarantee no one would be disappointed from the wait.

    What to Expect

    Now that I can share a bit more details, what to expect is something completely new and fresh. For years, I have carefully planned this out and build interesting worlds that is Arctic based. The entire book series brings you to a wintry, Arctic epic adventure. The genre what I said before is Fantasy, Action/Adventure with some Dark Fantasy and Horror elements. There is lots of action and adventure, suspense and danger, but there is a balance of awestruck wonder and some calm scenes, but not all are calm. There are Vampires, Witches, Warlocks, Demons, Dragons, Ghouls, Castles, Werewolves and... sled dogs! I always loved sled dogs and the whole sled dog community and I wanted to upgrade sled dogs to a whole different level. With this book, I believe I have achieved that. I am glad I waited and took the time to develop it into a cohesive and a well detailed and planned out story and world. There's lots of interesting characters, villains and even talking animals. I based a lot of this series upon the Native American culture and folktales. In doing this, I hope to bring awareness to the Native American languages and cultures. To show the world how beautiful Native American names and the culture is. I have always been fascinated by the Native American culture and I wanted a series that I can give back in bringing some awareness to these people who are invisible to the world. There's lots of spiritual elements which connects it to the spiritual Native theme. Not only that, but I have a diverse blend of different countries, languages and cultures used for this book. I dislike having one race or culture dominate my projects, not allowing others to finally have their chance to shine.


    The Ideal Readers

    Who did I aim to reach with my book? Well, the main reason I didn't agree with what the writing experts told me was that they advised to only write about trending topics. To recycle old concepts and ideas, but don't experiment with anything new. So I learned the rules through the years, but then I broke free and wrote what I felt spiritually connected to. I guess I can call it that. First, I wrote what I could proudly stand behind. 

    This read is for those who loves the Arctic, wintry setting and who loves sled dogs. It is for Fantasy lovers who are looking for something out of the box, something that is new and fresh, that hasn't been seen yet. I was raised to create original pieces that hasn't been done yet regardless of what is trending. To become a trend starter. My lone wolf mentality sort of induced this. I wanted something for the sled dog community and something great for the Native American race. Having been raised to know the Native American culture through the woman who adopted my mother, this was my way of giving back to the people who took my family in. 

    I never mentioned this before, but I do have characters who are into performing arts, classical music and opera singing. I was hoping to bring awareness to performing arts and classical music. I have always appreciated this music, but I noticed a decline in these things. I am not really sure how it came about to add performing arts in this book, but looking back, I guess it was always in this story. I think. 

    Some parts of the story takes place in the Yukon, Dawson City, Canada and some in Dellwood and North Oaks, Minnesota. I only used Minnesota because years ago during my early stages of writing, I noticed Minnesota was an often overlooked State in the country and the people here were always stereotyped. We are still stereotyped by those outside of Minnesota which was why I wanted to show a different side to Minnesota. The performing arts and more of the upper class community, the communities no one mentions. Minnesota is always shown as nothing more than just a frozen wasteland that no one wants to live in, but this State is a lot more than that. I also feel Canadians, especially the Yukon is an area most outsiders don't understand. 

    I have lots about the French people and culture. In fact, there are a few characters who migrated from France to the United States. I never noticed this until recently, but in many American entertainment, there's lots of comments that are all about taking jabs and stereotyping French people and Canadians. This wasn't the reason why I chose to add French characters and the French culture, but I felt this was my chance to have a story that shows an appreciation for France and Canada and the people who originate from these countries. 


    Who Is Tikaani Moon

    I know I've been getting people curious about the person behind Tikaani Moon. For years I did keep my identity a secret but now I am a little willing to share a bit more about myself. If people follow this blog, you would be able to read updates I share. 

    You can consider me to be a college student because I am still furthering my education outside of healthcare. I spent most of earlier years in the healthcare and history major, but I am currently enrolled for a Bachelor's in Web Development. I read of many writers who began their writing careers later, I decided to begin my career as early as possible even when I am still young. I feel that I am ready to officially begin my career in being a published writer. They always say writers are introverted and indeed this is true for I am a lone Wolf. I don't participate in social activities even as a college student. I invest all my energy in planning my future, expanding my education and establishing myself. I was inspired by the few 20 year olds who decided to get a head start on their careers, education and success, which motivated me to do the same after being encouraged by my mom first. 

    The other important thing to know about me is that I will always be known as the Living Doll because that is who I am. I will soon start showing pictures of myself and I will always be in my Living Doll gear, in Lolita, Fairy Kei, Pastel Goth and Historical dresses. I am building my Living Doll style around my Tikaani Moon character brand. I really love the Lolita fashion, but I also love the Fantasy, fairy-tale and wanderlust theme. I guess people can consider me a quite unconventional and different writer because of my pursuits in transforming myself to have more porcelain doll features. I love Japanese fashion the most. So much that I started wearing Lolita and the other fashions every single day. Becoming a Living Doll gave me an interest in Japanese fashion, the Japanese language, J-pop and the country Japan. 


    And in conclusion...

    I will make sure to give more details to fill others in about the new book series and other projects I am working on, for I have several other books, but also games and manga I am currently working to get finished. 

    I have to thank the humans who shown an interest. Surprisingly, now I have been getting many from Finland who have been curious. I then learned Finland is a country that loves sled dogs which now makes sense to me.  

    I will give more updates soon...

    New Insights on a Soon to be Available Read


  • It's time for another IWSG post. If you would like to learn more about it, please visit here...

    Besides writing what other creative outlets do you have?

    I have many other creative outlets outside of writing. First, I do wish to include my creative outlets are from different writing forms such as manga and scripts either I will write for screenplay or film. 

    Outside of writing, I am starting a career of becoming a game creator. I have created about 10 games so far. Over the years through my gaming, I just had a few ideas for new games which was why I decided to develop them. I also have started a concept for a new game console years ago. I at first thought it was a silly idea and there's no way my console would go anywhere. That was when I got encouragement to develop the console and so I am continuing this journey to do this. 

    I live in a creative way, for my life is creative as a Fashion Designer and Living Doll. I am starting a journey to transforming myself into a Real Life Doll, mainly the Human Anime type version of Tikaani Moon. I am creating a doll version of Tikaani Moon which is an Anime type doll. As a Fashion Designer, I have designed clothes but it wasn't until recently did I get a suggestion from my family to pursue a career in becoming an official Fashion Designer. No, I didn't need official training in order to design clothes because I had a natural creative talent in designing these things. However, my designs fits the Kawaii, Lolita and Living Doll circle which was why I decided to use it for my new Living Doll life. I invite people to read updates about my transformation journey. Becoming a Living Doll to me is a fun way to be creative and to live creatively because you get to wear beautiful clothes everyday, wear unique hair colors and makeup. A Living Doll is basically a person who wants to resemble a doll and have real life features of one as well. I love my new lifestyle. Even more so when I found creative ways to make it out of a profitable career.

    These are my other creative outlets, in which I have plenty outside of writing. 

    IWSG: February 6 2019

  • Unfortunately, the book is not available yet because I'm still making final preparations needed to be made first. I decided to reread the entire book again, and I'm glad I did because my family and I were able to catch a few grammatical errors that was missed the other few times I reread it.

    So, my family and I are still at chapter 1, but I know it's gonna go fast due to the errors are minimal. I just have to make sure the formatting is right.

    I am still working on the book cover. I'm still at the stage where I'm giving descriptions of my vision of the cover design. This book is filled with exciting adventure and I need a cover that captures going off on an adventure, Arctic style. This is where I'm at with the cover art and the book itself.

    Fortunately, these are the final preparations needed to be made. I am just polishing it and making sure there's no errors. With the help of my family of course. This book will be available soon this year in 2019. No more will there be another year passing by that I have to say, one of these days I'll publish. I know I've been getting questions about my book, and I have to say to hang tight. It won't be long now, but still, there are first preparations that needs to be made. Just because it is self-publish, that doesn't mean I should reduce my hard wok in half. In order to be taken seriously, I do know I must put forth the effort and give it my all.

    The reason I chose to not hire an editor was due to the previous suggestions to my book that I didn't agree with. First, I was advised to remove the parts about Canada because the experts feel my book should be an all American book. No, I'm not going to do that because my book and all of my projects are multicultural. I want to keep it that way and this is what I'll be most known for as having multicultural stories with a blend of diverse characters, languages and countries in one story.

    I am rechecking the research as well, in which so far, it is correct. After polishing, formatting and the book cover, I will be ready to make the book available. It has been a pleasure and a lot of uphill battles trying to write this very book, my Fantasy book. I put my heart and soul into this and I can't afford for anyone to hinder my potential success which was why I bypassed all of that unnecessary hassle and decided to self-publish. I've read of successful self-published book and even some that were picked up by unique traditional publishers.

    Thinking of this book alone, I can think about the struggles I had trying to improve my writing and improve the book to a publish worthy piece. I love writing and it would be nice to turn my passion into an official career. Well, I have, it's just the difference is that I am not yet published, but yet. I will be published this year guarantee. What to expect is to discover something completely different, something new and fresh. Because I am coming into this industry unconventional, I write new out of the box stuff that I hope my hard work will show in every WIP.

    I will give more updates soon, especially I will make sure to share when the book is finally available. 

    Updates

  • One of many of the reasons why I hesitated being a Living Doll was the severe criticism it received from the church. I did know years ago that Christians condemned anything related to Kawaii stuff and Lolita fashion.

    I titled this Universal Criticism because I have noticed both the media and the church has equally criticized the Kawaii society. I continue to comment on these bad comments about this society because obviously people misunderstand, but they're not trying to understand neither.

    The answer to someone's question is yes, I have worn my Kawaii clothes and Lolita dresses to church before. This was years ago because I don't go to church anymore. I am still a religious person, but I didn't like the problems I had when attending church. Well, when I wore my Lolita clothes, people would give me mean looks, but I get this wherever I wear these sort of clothes. I then learned the church condemns it. I was curious as to why, and I ran across an article which said because Lolita is an alternative style, it could lead to paganism? Also, the Christian community is angry that Catholic and Christian art is used for Lolita, which I don't see anything wrong with it at all. As a religious person myself, I was actually glad to see Lolita brands using artwork from parts of my religion. It also said Christians are only suppose to follow mainstream fashion. This made me believe because Lolita fashion is not mainstream, the church feels threatened by it because this style is not trending, and it's considered alternative fashion.

    There were other comments which made me annoyed how the Christian community tried to make the Kawaii society about race and religion, when it isn't. Wearing Japanese fashion has never enticed people to convert to different religions. Again, this society has nothing to do with race or religion. It promotes a multiculturalism. It teaches, regardless of your race, skin colour or religion, anyone from any country is welcomed to wear Lolita, Kawaii clothes and even become a Living Doll.

    People who just like wearing Lolita is not the same as being a Living Doll. Often times people assume they're all the same, but they're not. So, there is more condemnation for those like myself who pursue a lifestyle in being a real life doll. I mentioned this to bring awareness to these comments and to help people better understand. Everyone who becomes a part of this society are welcomed to bring their own style, but it depends upon the individual as to how they build their theme and conduct themselves.

    Mainly however, being a Kawaii girl is nothing bad. In fact, there are rules, and it promotes innocent child-like thinking, to be kind and it promotes people to always be optimistic. I find nothing wrong with this fashion, especially when most of the Lolita dresses never shows any skin that would deem it inappropriate. There is also nothing wrong with Gothic fashion, a fashion that is often condemned. However, Goth or Pastel Goth fashion is not evil.

    I also recently read a ridiculous news article from NPR, stating of a cuteness overload. People such as the Kawaii women who obsess in cute things and surround themselves with cuteness are prone to violent urges. I find these "expert" statements incorrect. I also take offense to that comment since I am building a Kawaii collection. I may like cute things, but never have I had thoughts to harm the cute creatures in Kawaii decor. Never have I wanted to harm animals. If anything, I have been protective of things I see are innocent and defenseless like animals from people who would harm them.

    No matter what anyone says, I'm never giving up my new style. I've gotten hooked on the pursuit to become a Living Doll, no one can convince me to give it up. It's too beautiful.

    I hope to make more posts about this topic in order to help society better understand. 

    Universal Criticism

  • I wanted to share a few updates. The first update I wanted to share was college, enrolling in college, again. I have now decided which major I wanted to go for.... Web Development. Yes, like HTML, CSS, coding, Website Design and yes, it's lot of math courses to this major. I didn't go choose Creative Writing because to be honest, I don't agree with a lot of the stuff that is taught by the experts. This also goes into my next update...

    So because of this same reason, I decided to self-publish. I know the stereotypes about self-published books. You know, most of them have lots of errors and they aren't properly developed and edited, but just because my book is being self published, don't think this will be the case for my book. No, I continue proofreading and editing to make sure there are no errors and that it is properly formatted.

    Why did I choose self publish after all this talk of traditional publishing? Well, I watched a few videos, particularly this video: Book Publishing Companies: How to Choose a Publishing Company which I did find extremely insightful. I did read about the issues with contracts and having say over your projects before, but this video in particular brought it back to my head again. I read how publishers seem to want to focus more on what's trending and popular and they dislike if writers wish to explore outside of mainstream, existing bestsellers. They're not trying to be a trend starter, but a trend follower. If you've been reading my blogs, you know that I am not a follower and my WIPs were not created to follow trends, but I wrote what I was passionate about. Plus, I write to be a trend starter, not a trend follower.

    I do know what is trending now, and Romance is trending, but I am not interested in selling out from my own views and how I would want my book to be to please these big publishers. I'm not a sell out, never would I be neither. So, my first book-Well, actually my books are not Romance nor are there any Romance themes in them. I feel just because there's a boy and a girl that doesn't mean they have to kiss and make out; that doesn't mean they have to fall in love with each other. I do have a male and female working together during the Fantasy series adventures, but they are nothing more than just like coworkers and I feel it is inappropriate for coworkers to allow emotions and things of that sort to come in between doing business. It's a distraction which draws it away from the plot and/or what's important.

    Even from my fashion choices, you know that I am not a mainstream, trend follower. If you know the Lolita and Kawaii or Living Doll community already, you know that this is not mainstream nor is it popular. In fact, there's more criticism about this lifestyle than there is positive comments.

    So anyway, I dislike too comparing my books to existing works because it would insinuate I copied or got the whole idea from a book that is already out there. My answer is, no, I do not get my ideas from others nor do I get influenced by other writers and their works. All of these projects rather book, script, game or manga, they are all from my own mind. I saw how the big publishers like that you obsessively compare yourself to other writers and books, but also to imitate things that has been done and not to explore things the world hasn't seen yet. To stay within the safe box and to not explore or use too much creativity, but to recycle existing ideas and concepts. This is something I will never do. I have ideas that is original. The world needs something new, something fresh and something people never saw before and this is what I strive for in all of my entertainment projects.

    So, this is the reason why I decided to publish through Amazon's publishing service. I am getting a design done for the book cover. I may post a cover reveal on the blog. I found someone, the same guy from Indonesia who designed my blog header and he agreed to design my book cover. I didn't want my cover to look generic and poorly made and so this is why I chose this person to design my cover because he is an awesome artist.

    So, I wanted to give a bit more details about the genre and elements of my first Fantasy book, which is book one to a six book series. The category is a Fantasy, Action/Adventure series, with epic adventure and some thriller and suspense because there is constant danger and struggle. This book is a winter, arctic themed series that has dragons, witches, a wizard, vampires, werewolves, domovoys, demons, castles and lots of mystic and wonder. I used the Native American culture as a main theme, but there's also Canadian, American, Japanese, Indian (South Asian), Russian and French culture.

    This book I believe revolutionizes female characters and female villains. There's only one type of female villain I like, and that is someone who is competent, powerful and is focused about what she wants. I personally dislike how most experts tell you to develop female characters. Either overly aggressive (the rude, blunt, nagging, trouble-making, smart mouth wench) or overly passive (weak emotionally or physically, a damsel in distress), but there's no good balance to their characters compared to male characters. I personally dislike the seductive type female villain because I feel that is their whole theme, being sexy and practically naked, wearing revealing clothes and always showing how sexy they are in a quite slutty way. This is not my ideal female villain, heroine or female character altogether. I developed my female characters based upon my own upbringing of my mom teaching me to be independent, self reliant, but also have self-dignity. You can be strong and beautiful at the same time.

    So, these are just my views and how I wrote my projects. People are entitled to their views and they have a right to write however they wish.

    Anyway, for my enrollment for Web Development, it is a Bachelor's degree. I chose this due to my blog and also the new e-Commerce business my mom and I are starting together. I have taken courses for certificates, but I would like to have a degree in this and advance my education on html and css. When it comes to coding, I dislike being solely depended upon others and so this is why I invested the time to learn how to do this myself.

    I will make sure to give lots more updates and fill in details about the book and other updates when I can... 

    Some Updates

  • Some were suggesting that I should reopen a Facebook account, which is something I wasn't interested in doing. Then my family said I also should do this, but a Facebook page, not a personal account being that I had security issues with having a personal Facebook account. Plus, Facebook I believe discriminated and profiled.

    I agreed to set up a Facebook page, but when I relooked at Facebook, I saw the same problem I had with Facebook years ago continued. Actually it seems I am banned from opening any other account or page with Facebook. I wasn't interested in keeping my old account because I have become more maturer now that I am older and my author brand is more developed. Well, I am still developing it. However, Facebook said I was a security risk and to prove my identity. Due to the recent issues with the politics stuff, more flags were placed on my account. For some reason, Facebook kept the grudge against me for whatever reason.

    I will not publish under my real name and I haven't been using my real name, and so even when I try doing business transactions, people don't know my real name and so I have to tell them my real name in order to know I am making a payment for their service. I will publish under Tikaani Moon, but Facebook is not allowing me to use my author name but no one will know who I am if I was to do this. I built my brand using my pen name and trademark. I kept giving Facebook my ID but they request for a passport, which is something I now have. There was that issue they falsely accused me of being an illegal immigrant. I am not, I'm not even an immigrant.

    I didn't know what that would mean or how it would affect marketing to be absent on Facebook, but I cannot do anything about that if I was banned from using the site. When I kept trying to resolve the issue, Facebook threatened to deport me to Afghanistan, in which why would you deport an American citizen?

    So I decided to leave it alone and to skip Facebook altogether. People are welcomed to share any of my stuff on Facebook, but just I will not have a presence there.

    Skipping Facebook

  • Even though I said I wanted to choose traditional publishing, I am still researching publishing options to choose the right one for me. I saw the pros and cons for both publishing options and currently, I'm still trying to decide.

    In the meantime, I am also researching the countries right for me to publish in. I am not just looking in the United States because I do not want to limit myself or miss better opportunities.

    I've never actually wrote a summary for the book since a few years ago. So I thought to create a new document for book and manga summaries, but I learned I already have a document for that. So I write a bunch of ideas for book summaries. This document I also keep track of the number of projects I have. I've only counted the books on this document, but on others, I have added manga, scripts and games. So far, the number of books I created was 43+ which I think is very good. I know this means I would have a long career, especially due to my age.

    You know what you always hear about Millennials, which happens to be right. We are always looking for new, innovative and easier ways of doing things. So, I am looking for this in writing and publishing. I've learned easier ways to self-publish, in which it seems now this seems a bit better than traditional publishing. I have considered doing this, but I am not completely ditching the traditional publishing way. However, I don't see traditional publishing has gotten any easier due to the agents and publishers that you have to market yourself to try and convince them to sell your book. I read about the actual revenue you get from selling books. No, I am not too obsessed with this, but I was seeing how you get a bit more when self publishing because you don't have to split this money with the company and than the others working to help with the book.

    I am currently doing final preparations for my book I will publish first. I am making sure the formatting and everything is right and it's completely free of any errors. Now I do know the second book and the other books to the series needs to be finished. However since manga only requires 100 or 200 pages, I have been wanting to work to get this done soon.

     I've heard how many writers quit their jobs in order to become full time writers. I am not going this route. I will continue working as a PCA, but writing isn't the only career I have. I do write books, but then I also write manga, scripts and games, which would give me a bit more to do. Plus, I am developing a new game console.

    So whatever I decide to do, I will make sure to post updates here... 

    Final Preparations and More Updates

  • I ran across an article as I was scrolling through my Google feed saying there has been an increased number of Asian Fantasy and Science Fiction writers. Now when I say Asian, I noticed most people assume this only refers to East Asians like Chinese or Japanese writers. However, Asian is not limited to these people nor this region. On my other blog, I try to bring awareness to this fact. Anyway, I am referring to the entire Asian race, which does include the Middle East and South Asia.

    It would seem Asians are growing an increased interest in writing in the Fiction genre, specifically the Fantasy and Science Fiction genres. Mostly, they are able to include their own cultures into these genres, which is introducing diversity and readers to unused ethnic groups, religions and cultures. I believe the publishing industry does need more diverse writers, not just diverse characters.

    I was interested in this being that I am one of those Asian writers. My first writing was in the Fantasy genre, later on, I became interested in Science Fiction. You also have to know that I write lots of Horror. No one influenced my interest in these genres, I just naturally began writing Fantasy. I guess because I liked my creativity was able to be used. I had random ideas and I just decided to write them down.

    I am not really sure how to react to this news. I guess I'm happy to see other Asians writing in the same genres I write in. Earlier, I use to feel out of place in the Fantasy genre because I didn't see people of my ethnic group writing Fantasy or Science Fiction. I really didn't see any person of color writing in these genres. Despite this, I continued because I had more passion to write Fantasy and Science Fiction than any other genre. Although I felt like an outsider, I was never concerned about that ever. Now that there are others writing in these genres, it validates that anyone is able to write Fantasy and Science Fiction regardless of ethnic group.

    This also confirms how Fantasy shouldn't be limited, especially when it comes to-well, anything pretty soon. Not having to limit my creativity and my random mind is what makes Fantasy and Science Fiction my favourite genres to write in. Well, also Horror. 

    Increased Number of Asian Fantasy and Science Fiction Writers

  • I won't do another post like this because I know when you become established or even if you have an online presence and you get more of an audience, you are bound to get bad comments and harassment. I'm not gonna get into the back and forth crap that happened years ago that I later learned... You know what, I won't even acknowledge them on my blog. If people wish to troll me for years, wasting their time, go right ahead. However, because of specific comments made by these particular people, well, those online have been wondering this. I think it wasn't solely because of this incident, but due to the fact I was anonymous for years until the Facebook incident forced me to fill in information about me.

    So again, the only reason people cannot find much information about me online on my other profiles is only because, again, I was planning on publishing anonymously. I didn't want my personal information online especially when I was so young on the internet. I started building up my author brand, which people know as my Tikaani Moon brand since the age of 13. So I was online at this age starting off as an aspiring writer. Despite this, Facebook didn't care about my concerns with the internet. I knew being a modern writer however, I did need an online presence.

    One thing that some people like to think is that I am some fantasized image of my mom and that I'm something made up. People tends to think that I am not as young as I say I am, and actually someone much older is writing these posts and developing the Tikaani Moon brand. Well, if these people assume that, I'm not sure what to think. Should I be flattered that people would think I'm way older because of my writing? I didn't think my writing on my blog was that great because I do tend to make lots of errors due to me learning so many other languages. I tend to read lots of bad English or forget English rules, and so this is the result.

    What I need to note is that, no I'm not older than what I say online. I am a real Millennial, and for years I was actually a teenager. I don't get anyone older to write these posts for me, especially my mom. I write these myself and no, I'm nothing my mom made up to live out her fantasies of being a writer and being a living doll. My mom hates writing and she has no interest in being a living doll herself, and so this is my thing that no one forced me to do.

    I am in fact a real person and a real writer. The reason I don't have anything available for anyone is because I was again, improving my writing and my first Fantasy series was actually NOT publish ready. I keep explaining this to people but for some reason they seem to ignore what I am saying to them. Now though, I am ready for publication and will be a published author very soon. I'm currently searching for an agent and publisher.

    The reason I haven't moved to Japan yet was mainly due to the issues the U.S. had with North Korea. I read Americans were being kidnapped from Japan who were North Korean spies, posing as Japanese natives. So this was a serious safety risk. That's not all though. I really wanted to know fluent Japanese first before moving to this country. I dislike dealing with language barriers and poor communication. I wanted to learn the laws and the etiquette to avoid making a fool out of myself in Japan. I do love Japan and the Japanese people and I do wish to move outside of the United States. I also haven't been sure recently if I really wanted to still move to Japan because I've been also interested in Germany. I have looked at the process of moving to Germany already.

    So that's what I had to clear so people would not have these misconceptions about me anymore, although these trollers are not going to stop.  

    Some Things to Clear

  • After watching more videos on real life dolls, I finally found out which country started the living doll trend... It was Ukraine officially, but I do believe both Ukraine and Russia did start the living doll trend, even though people in East Asia were transforming themselves into dolls way before.

    I spoke with a woman who works at an Anime Convention. She, like many others have shown an intrigue to know there is someone who is announcing to be a new living doll. Not just any living doll, but some have been considering me to be an extreme living doll. I know I've been getting questions regarding my living doll transformation.

    The obvious answer is yes, I'm still pursuing my living doll transformation. It just takes a bit longer than I expected and I don't want to show any before transformation photos. I was viewing makeup tutorials from China which inspired me to experiment what I can accomplish with makeup alone. I will however still get plastic surgery. I've saw a plastic surgery video from South Korea, which tempted me to travel for my plastic surgery. If I'm getting plastic surgery, I do want the best and right now, the leaders of cosmetic surgery is Japan and South Korea. Of course though, I've already seen the dangers of getting plastic surgery in South Korea and this is the reason I've been debating. I know one red flag is many plastic surgery facilities in South Korea do not have an Anesthesiologist present during the actual procedure which I learned is not a good thing. I wonder is the risk worth it?

    I've been extra cautious to maintain my porcelain skin. I don't spend lots of time out in the sun or I cover the skin the sun would touch outside. For me, getting a tan would be disastrous since the dolls I want to resemble don't have tans. I have also been trying to sacrifice in my diet in order to maintain a doll waist. Of course though, my waist can be smaller and I have been considering returning to wearing corsets. I know my waist is already small and some have became concerned with possible injury from wearing the corsets. Well, that's the reason why I took a break wearing them. One day, I noticed my stomach was hurting really bad. My mom told me to take the corset off and I did, but I felt that there was some sort of damage done by the corset and that's why I haven't worn it since. I think there was bruising to the organs, and although slowly, it did heal. However, I do wish to have a waist that matches a doll's waist. Not unrealistic goals, but I just think my waist can be smaller. My main goal is to make sure I can always wear Asian sized clothing, which is way smaller than U.S. sized clothing.

    I like that I'm able to survive with little food and that's a great start for my diet. I'm willing to make sacrifices to get my desired results and to maintain it.

    I've heard that if I become a living doll, I would be one of few of my kind who transformed themselves into real life dolls through plastic surgery and makeup. I'm unsure how true this is, but I am not too concerned with that. It's okay with me that there aren't many Turks who have went to these extremes to resemble a doll.

    I love how dolls look. They're beautiful, but I also love how Anime girls look. I am unsure what I should do because I do love the Ellowyne Wilde doll, but I also love the Anime girl look. I am trying to find a way to combine it.

    As I have stated before, I am not use to wearing makeup. So I need lots of practice, lots more than I thought. I now know I can't just automatically be a professional at applying Asian styled makeup. I have been inspired what makeup can do, and how it can make someone look like a doll if applied correctly. It would be even nicer if I became a living doll with minimum facial plastic surgery. This is why I've been learning about the Korean beauty products. However, somethings I cannot avoid plastic surgery. I still would like a few ribs removed to make sure I will have a dolly waist.

     I now know there are many who are fascinated in learning there is an new and upcoming real life doll. I'm getting there, steadily. I would be happy when I finally complete my dolly look. With my life changes and plastic surgery, I'm keeping my goals realistic and safe. It's not about looking unreal, I just would love to resemble a doll, as close as possible to a doll's face and body. When people see me, I want them to say, "She looks exactly like a doll." I want to look like a doll for my own happiness. That's what I want to see when looking into a mirror.

    I will make sure to post more updates on my journey in transforming myself into a real life doll.

    Living Doll Updates

  • My bedroom along with myself will get a complete makeover and big transformation. I will be giving updates on my progress as usual.

    Years ago, I realized how dark my style was. My room has dark colors and no sunlight in it, it is black and red. During that time, I didn't like bright colors, but now I want to change my lifestyle and my whole theme and style. I have lots of Wolf decor in my bedroom, which I was told it doesn't fit with the Kawaii theme. Well, I do want Kawaii, but I'm trying to go for a different style and so the Wolf decor would still work in my bedroom.

    Since I am getting a complete makeover and transformation to become a Living Doll, my bedroom needs to fit my new lifestyle. I wanted a room to resemble a dollhouse. Then I have been drawn to the Moroccan and Bohemian theme. I just like lots of colors, but I learned the Kawaii is pastel colors and so I was told to stay within those shades. I still want to incorporate the Moroccan theme in my bedroom makeover. I want a fairytale, mystic type theme as well. This is the main theme I want.

    So, my family has been collecting furniture and other things that would help build up the theme I want.

    I was thinking I wasn't sure if I would like to actually be a Living Doll, but I do like the dolly look and everything about being a real life doll. I was just considering becoming more like a character. Of course, this is an original character I am creating that I will become. It is sort of Anime themed. I want to become a real life Tikaani Moon, the human version of Tikaani Moon, which I would like to create a doll for the Tikaani Moon character brand.

    So the theme I'm building for my bedroom and new lifestyle is fairytale, whimsical, cultural and Kawaii. My bedroom needs a lot of work, but my family is slowly getting it together, including cleaning out the clutter.

    I will make sure to give more updates on my progress.  

    Makeover Updates and Announcement


  • The first IWSG posting for 2019. If you want to learn more about it, visit here.

    What are your favorite and least favorite questions people ask you about your writing?


    First, my favorite perhaps would-well, I like answering questions regarding my writing, but the favorite is perhaps the genres I write or discussing the themes or elements that's in my writing. Like what sort of stuff I write. I also like getting questions as to how my brand fits with my writing because I am able to further explain and introduce myself. I just get excited when I am able to discuss writing related topics or topics that relate to business. That's basically the only thing I talk about all day everyday. 

    The least favorite would have to be I guess questions that pressure me as why I am not published yet. I have explained countless times how I have been improving my writing because I knew my WIPs needed lots of work, especially my first book which I will publish first. I feel people shouldn't stress and pressure me about how long I've been writing without anything published yet. Unfortunately, this is what I've mostly ran across with other writers and people who feel they are of an authority figure to me because of my age. I may be young, but I haven't been wasting my time within my years. I'm just as serious about writing as older writers. If I wasn't, there's no way I would have spent so many years trying to make my writing better, nor would I have been this committed to writing. 

    That's why I do feel the stereotypes toward young writers such as myself needs to end. Well, I am tired of the media giving their poor analysis on Millennials. Call me a child, okay fine, but enough with stereotyping Millennials and Teens who write.  

    IWSG: January 2nd

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